Oh Allah…
It was during the early stages of my life when I started facing what I perceived as setbacks and I claimed to be strong enough not to refer to anybody for support but
I knocked at Your door and I found You.
I stood before You exposing my vulnerability which I skillfully hid form others,
Yet again I found You,
Pouring Your Merciful Blessings to heal my wounds,
Shielding me with Your holy cloak of Kindness
Which made me seek no one else but You.
I was Young, weak and fearful, but I found You ..
To fill the void that separated me from my being.
I sought out to You and I never ceased to find You.
I rose up again, lively triumphant and still I found You,
Happy to see me rejoicing the end of lengthy woes combat…
I rose up strong, Yet growing more needy of You,
And again I found You,
As though there’s a vow,
A deal we stuck together,
That whenever I seek Your help I’d find You.
It was on that morning that I woke up to the warmth of the Sunrays,
That which You ordered to reach me,
And rub my shoulders,
And I was lively happy again,
Like a flower watered by Your Love.
Sometimes wonder why You order destiny to stand in the way of me referring to a friend
To open up in the seek out for comfort…
Some other times I found it hard to comprehend
Yhy You tend to prolong my cure.
And I learned, assured, that this was for me to know that there’s no soothing hand but Yours.
Now, as I stand at Your door,
I confess,
You are my sole Power.
People wonder why I am overly secretive,
Rarely seek help, I guess here I provide the answer…
I have found the Ultimate source of support,
The ultimate Power
That transcends by order from You;
The Supreme in Greatness… The Granter of Security…
The Bestower of Honor and The Humiliator!
It always amazed me and still does
How close You always be.
At the times I fell sad
I found You..
And when I rose up healed
I’d still find You
Who or what else I would need?
My heart went out for things,
Wishes and others, but it came back to find You.
When I feared I found You.
I got fulfilled to know You.
I wavered to seek out to You, and still..
Found You.
The more You draw me near,
The more I need You.
I traveled seeking a new homeland
And I found You.
And when I felt this was not it
I still found You.
I traveled all the distance back to start all over again,
And I found You.
Everything changed
But never You.
I sought out differently each time,
And yet every time I found You.
I lived as a sincere introvert,
And I found the great company in You
I grew up..
Changed a bit..
Got busier may be,
But I always return to You,
To find You always watching over.
And at times when I got distracted and the distance between us grew bigger,
You sent gentle reminders upon me that it’s been a while since I last appealed to You.
And I’d heed the sign,
To come back again and still…
Find You.
Running to You,
I realize how I long for those dear moments of Connection You bestow upon me…
At times of extreme hardships I found You waiting for me to ask
And You’d always Give.
And at merry times
You never ceased to remind me that what I enjoy is from You,
So I’d thank and You’d Give.. even more.
Years have passed and I grew older and more needy of You.
I lived a lot, reaching a point where I wonder why I went all that long way and
what for, the answer is yet to come,
Your Holy Words dictate that You created Mankind and Jinns to worship You,
And we’d still go astray,
And You’d still forgive.
I went to explore nature
And I found You.
I found You among the graceful mountains,
Where you revealed Your Divine Self upon Your Messengers
And spoke to them.
I resorted to meditation,
But I found in You a better resort.
I read about human laws and flaws
And I found You.
I found You in my words, thoughts and senses.
I met with great minds and dark hearts,
Pure and ailing souls..
Those who’re successful and those still needy of Thou Guidance to show them the
way,
And I found them all on the seek out for Thou Mercy to beckon their footsteps, but
each in his own way,
Even when they not the least realize it.
I met nobody who’s not in need of You.
I found You in all beauties.
And on every spot of land I found You.
Everything around me changes,
And yet continues to change,
But never You.
May You always instill Thou Love in my humble heart,
And never deny me those Wasl moments I live with You,
It’s those moments that breath life into my life,
Bless me with Your Love till my last breath.
By: Maha Youssuf
maha@muslimtribune.org
